Dear Pregnant Stranger, I spotted you this morning, sitting there rubbing your bump, a small smile escaping your lips as you caught my eye. “Only two weeks to go!” you told me, pointing towards your belly, “A little boy this time, one of each!”. And as I smiled and nodded, following your gaze over to…
Dear Joseph, Last night we brought the tree down from the attic, the big box of decorations and the twinkling lights, and instantly I felt it, that clawing feeling in the back of my throat, the deep ache in the pit of my belly, the rising sense of panic as it hit me that another…
“I know exactly how you feel.” It’s a phrase I have heard countless times over the years, when we lost our first baby to miscarriage, when our second son Joseph was stillborn, when we lost one baby after another and wondered if we would ever hold our rainbows. “I went through exactly the same.” A…
Medical negligence. It’s a term I have always feared, worrying that when you put your trust into the hands of a doctor, a nurse or a surgeon, they may let you down. Looking back I can think of countless times when this has happened to me over the years, when a doctor has betrayed my…
The last couple of weeks have been tough, I’ve been feeling all kinds of emotions, none of which I can find the words to explain exactly how so. I think if I was asked for one word to sum up how I have been feeling, I would simply say, sad. I’m sad that for the last…
Joseph, I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve sat down to write this letter to you this week, searching for the right words, trying to put down all of these thoughts and feelings in my head, when all I really want to say is that I miss you, that my heart is hurting right…