Of all the feelings and emotions I associated with baby loss, jealousy was never one of them. Of course I imagined sadness and anger, an overwhelming sense of loss, of disbelief that our world as we knew it had cruelly been turned upside down. But jealousy? I just never thought that I would associate such…
Losing a baby is devastating, and I will never try to tell you otherwise. It’s unfair, it’s heart breaking, and it’s completely life changing, and there are no word to truly describe how that feels. And in those early days when others try to rally around and support you, when they comfort you with kind…
To the Mummy at the cemetery, I saw you today, sobbing at the cemetery. Your baby’s grave so fresh and new, the flowers you so lovingly picked out now wilting and dying, an untimely reminder that nothing lasts forever. There was a fleeting moment when our eyes met, a small nod of the head as we smiled…
Did you know that 1 in 5 women develop mental health problems during pregnancy? This week Tommy’s, a charity very close to my heart, has launched the Big Give campaign where they are fundraising to create an online tool to help all pregnant women manage their mental wellbeing. With information, advice and features to help…
Joseph, 12 years, 2 months and 19 days. That’s how long it has been since the day you came silently into the world and changed our lives forever. And in that time I have told your story on countless occasions: I have shared it with friends and loved ones, I have confided in bereaved parents…
After Joseph died, and my little rainbows joined us in quick succession, I made a promise to the four of them, and to Joseph, that we would not allow our loss to impact on our happiness as a family. And for the most part, we don’t. Thanks to Joseph we laugh a little louder, we…